This is Goodbye

You’ve heard it all before…

If you have stuck with me for this long, you are probably rolling your eyes thinking about all the previous times I have called it quits on this blog. Well, bring your eyes back to the front, because today is the day I am finally going to let this blog be the past.

As you all know, I absolutely love writing honestly about the events of my life. I lost friends over these posts, but I have also found deeper parts of myself because of these posts. This blog has not only caused so much in my life, but also helped me through so much in life.

A Precious Penny began titled ‘Little Miss Unsure’. I started this blog as a lost, lonely, and depressed college student over two years ago. I needed an outlet for my abundance of thoughts… I felt that being an anonymous blogger was the perfect escape. I had created a book blog the year before and had a blast writing book reviews, but I needed a place to write my inner most thoughts, so Little Miss Unsure was born.

When I go back and reread my posts from when the blog first began my heart literally breaks. I’m not the same person I was back then… I’m married (I never would have thought in a million years that is where I would be!) and I’m a college graduate with a full-time job. A lot of my very real, yet irrational, fears were put to rest, because I conquered them!

I am so attached to this blog, because it is hard to give that girl I used to be up. I know she was me and I also know that she is still inside me. I still have irrational fears, I still get scared, I still have meltdowns, and I am still insecure. Even though I have persevered, I am still human. I never wanted to delete this blog, because it was all a person I used to know wanted… that person wanted to erase the chronicled hurt they caused me, that person wanted to erase the light that I had painted them in. That person wanted to move on with their lives knowing my words couldn’t haunt them. Newsflash: The way that person has continued to treat me will always haunt them. Whether I delete this blog or not, the words I have written here will always echo in the back of their mind. I hope that causes them to learn how to forgive those who have wronged them or hurt their feelings. I hope that causes them to give chances and to show love no matter what.

A Precious Penny will not be deleted today. Although I am going to leave it in the past, I refuse to erase my thoughts, feelings, and fears that I have chronicled here. It is a part of me and it helps show me how far I have come and all the things I have to be grateful for! I hope the words I have written here will help someone else feeling alone or struggling with depression. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

So, all of my faithful blogging friends and followers, I’m married now! I had a beautiful fairytale wedding where I got to become one with my best friend and now it is time for me to move on from A Precious Penny, but – never fear – I’m not done writing! Like many times before, I just want a fresh start. I don’t want to be bogged down with my history. If I want to reference how I used to feel then I will, but for now, I want to start from August 5th – the day I became a wife – and go from there. If you want to continue to keep up with my journey, you can at The Little Grey Wife.

You have all been wonderful and I appreciate all the encouragement and support I received here. Now onto my next phase of life! ❤


Oh and here’s a picture of me and hubs from the wedding 🙂

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Rather Donate Than Deal

hurtTo be able to say that you are used to being hurt is horrible. The fact that I can log into pinterest and search for quotes about being hurt and the abundance are about how often it happens and how we are used to it is awful. When did our society just accept this behavior and these feelings as normal? When did we stop trying to be better and treat people better? Now it just feels we are always trying to one-up our stories about how we were hurt or how we hurt someone else. It makes me sick.

My friend, you know the friend from Hell who was supposed to be my best friend, who ended our friendship and decided it was over wasn’t worth saving… ya well she struck again. Yesterday, after she told me we weren’t ever going to talk again, because she didn’t think we made good friends, she texted me that she wanted to meet up today to return a swimsuit that I had left at her house. I thought that was nice, so I agreed to meet her. She told me the time and place she would be where I could stop by. I couldn’t make it at that time due to work meetings, so she said she would text me when she was done apartment shopping and we could meet then.

So today rolled around and once my meetings were done I texted her that I was available to meet, so just send me the when and where. Over and hour had passed when she finally texted me back that she was already out of town. WTF! Why didn’t you text me you were leaving, so we could quickly exchange stuff? Why didn’t you reply sooner to give me time to meet you? Why? Why? Why?

My theory: She can’t face me. She thought she could, but when it really came down to it, she can’t.

I told her to donate the swimsuit. I am through dealing with her. She continuously, purposefully hurts me and I am done going through that over and over again.

Movie Review: The Prestige

the prestigeThe Prestige is an oldie, but a goody from 2006. It is one of the best suspenseful thrillers that I have seen lately. I have been meaning to watch it for awhile now, but finally made time last night, because it is one of my fiance’s favorites.

I knew it was about rival magicians, but that is all I knew when the movie began. Christopher Nolan did a wonderful job transporting you to a whole other place and time. The costumes and sets were beautiful and Hugh Jackman and Christian Bale were fantastic!

Basically, two up-and-coming magicians start out as friends, but after a deadly turn become obsessive enemies always trying to one up the other. There is this air of mystery throughout the entire movie and in their relationship. I feel like there is always this unknown yet understood notion moving them forward and fueling their obsession.

I won’t lie, towards the end there are multiple twists and turns that keep you either on the edge of your seat or more confused than ever. The last twist is the one that I didn’t see coming at all. After seeing the end, I want to go back and watch the movie again to see if it is at all noticeable. Very well done!

I would give it an 8 out of 10. It was very good, but I didn’t find it to be easy to follow the whole time, but the ending was well worth the watch. I would recommend to anyone who likes movies with major twists at the end, suspenseful or thriller movies, or just magic in general.

Pretty, Pink, & Totally Sweet

As you all know I’m getting married in less than a month and all the festivities are in full swing! July has been the busiest month related to the wedding with something to do every weekend. This past weekend, my mom threw me a bridal shower and it was wonderful!

The theme was pink and she went all out. The shower wasn’t exactly a secret, so I went over early to help her set up. We were up until 3am cleaning, setting up, and creating decorations. We finally called it quits to get some sleep. Running only on four hours of sleep, we got the whole party up and running with the help of my bridesmaids and cousins.

A good mix of friends and family were in attendance. We played “Guess How Many Hershey Kisses”, “Movie Quote Quiz”, “What’s on the Apron,” and everyone brought a recipe to put in my recipe box. My mom also created a huge spread of brunch foods that were super delicious!

25 Days to Go! ❤

A Letter To Lauren

Thank you Paul for writing me this letter! It was beyond perfect and made me smile so big!

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Dear Lauren,

You requested this letter exactly eleven months ago, but let’s ignore that, okay? My official excuse is this letter got stuck in a mailbox. You may wonder how that’s possible. So do I. But let’s not ask questions because sometimes our imagination is better than concrete answers.

Before I go any further, I notice a countdown clock (calendar?) on your blog. 37 days until your wedding! Congratulations! I know first-hand how stressful planning a wedding is and what you must be going through in the final weeks leading up to it.

Actually, I have no clue, but that sounded like a comforting statement to say, so I said it. Alright? Don’t hold it against me. 

I am curious what’s on the menu, though. 

The last wedding I went to, they served squash soup. I didn’t like it, so I ate it fast and pretended that it wasn’t…

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