I have a few friends that I talk about on here a lot. One of them being Elephant. Well last week I got this overwhelming feeling that she had replaced me over the summer with this other girl who was, for lack of a better term, cooler than me.
Friendship is a really sensitive subject for me, because I feel like my friends come and go way to quickly and I want to be more than just anyone to people. Well Payton and I were inseparable practically all of last semester and it was wonderful and I have some absolutely fantastic memories! But so far this semester has been very different and it has been a hard adjustment.
This past weekend Elephant’s boyfriend got into a car accident that messed up her car big time and so she was stranded at his place. She contacted me and told me all about it and then asked me if I wouldn’t mind giving her and her puppy a ride back to her place. This may sound like she was using me, but to me it felt like I was her friend again. That she hadn’t forgot that I would be there for her in a heartbeat.
Maybe getting to where we were last semester will just take time or maybe it is just not meant to be. But honestly I would rather be the reliable friend than the friend she calls up just for a good time. I want to be that friend that is there no matter what and that even if we aren’t as close anymore, if something huge happens in three years she will still call me to tell me the news or for help.
That may sound ridiculous, but it is how I feel. I don’t want to be just a mediocre friend, I want to be a forever friend. God, I am so incredibly cheesy. 🙂 So from now on if anything like this happens, I am going to try and not take it to heart, but instead work at creating what I want it to be.
❤ a girl