This is Goodbye

You’ve heard it all before…

If you have stuck with me for this long, you are probably rolling your eyes thinking about all the previous times I have called it quits on this blog. Well, bring your eyes back to the front, because today is the day I am finally going to let this blog be the past.

As you all know, I absolutely love writing honestly about the events of my life. I lost friends over these posts, but I have also found deeper parts of myself because of these posts. This blog has not only caused so much in my life, but also helped me through so much in life.

A Precious Penny began titled ‘Little Miss Unsure’. I started this blog as a lost, lonely, and depressed college student over two years ago. I needed an outlet for my abundance of thoughts… I felt that being an anonymous blogger was the perfect escape. I had created a book blog the year before and had a blast writing book reviews, but I needed a place to write my inner most thoughts, so Little Miss Unsure was born.

When I go back and reread my posts from when the blog first began my heart literally breaks. I’m not the same person I was back then… I’m married (I never would have thought in a million years that is where I would be!) and I’m a college graduate with a full-time job. A lot of my very real, yet irrational, fears were put to rest, because I conquered them!

I am so attached to this blog, because it is hard to give that girl I used to be up. I know she was me and I also know that she is still inside me. I still have irrational fears, I still get scared, I still have meltdowns, and I am still insecure. Even though I have persevered, I am still human. I never wanted to delete this blog, because it was all a person I used to know wanted… that person wanted to erase the chronicled hurt they caused me, that person wanted to erase the light that I had painted them in. That person wanted to move on with their lives knowing my words couldn’t haunt them. Newsflash: The way that person has continued to treat me will always haunt them. Whether I delete this blog or not, the words I have written here will always echo in the back of their mind. I hope that causes them to learn how to forgive those who have wronged them or hurt their feelings. I hope that causes them to give chances and to show love no matter what.

A Precious Penny will not be deleted today. Although I am going to leave it in the past, I refuse to erase my thoughts, feelings, and fears that I have chronicled here. It is a part of me and it helps show me how far I have come and all the things I have to be grateful for! I hope the words I have written here will help someone else feeling alone or struggling with depression. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

So, all of my faithful blogging friends and followers, I’m married now! I had a beautiful fairytale wedding where I got to become one with my best friend and now it is time for me to move on from A Precious Penny, but – never fear – I’m not done writing! Like many times before, I just want a fresh start. I don’t want to be bogged down with my history. If I want to reference how I used to feel then I will, but for now, I want to start from August 5th – the day I became a wife – and go from there. If you want to continue to keep up with my journey, you can at The Little Grey Wife.

You have all been wonderful and I appreciate all the encouragement and support I received here. Now onto my next phase of life! ❤


Oh and here’s a picture of me and hubs from the wedding 🙂

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